Day 4 - A Habit I Wish I Didn't Have

There are the obvious ones, but they are also the common ones...I wish I didn't bite my nails, wish I didn't smoke and so on. So in the interests of not being boring, I'm going to take this question a little deeper. And interpret it to be a characteristic I wish I didn't have...

I over-think. Who knew that thinking too much could be bad for you? I over-think situations I am in, situations I want to be in and ones that haven't even happened. Alongside ones which will never happen but I think about it just in case, so I know what I'd do if it did happen. Now, doesn't really seem like a bad thing, could cast it off as just being prepared, organised, thoughtful. Wrong. I make a conscious effort to wear my heart on my sleeve, and not shy away from true feelings because that only makes things worse in the long run. Therefore, by over-thinking silly situations, reading too far in to peoples behaviour and looking for alternate meanings behind peoples language, I just fuck myself over.

We all know life is complicated, people are complicated. But sometimes things can be just as simple as they seem. I never look at it that way, I'm always waiting for the ulterior motive to come out. I'm not always right, which is why this is a habit I wish I didn't have. But once or twice it has served in my favour.

Peace x